It’s funny the things you get emotional about, as a parent. I’ve been watching friends (and other bloggers) post updates on Facebook about their child leaving nursery, or finishing reception year, and the emotions they’re feeling.
Some of them are happy, some of them are relieved it’s the summer holidays, some of them seem sad… all of them mention having a little cry.
It’s something that I haven’t experienced yet – my daughter is three and has another year of pre-school before ‘big school’ – but this morning, I found myself feeling emotional as I dropped her off for the day. For a few months now, we’ve been preparing her for the fact that, come September, lots of her pre-school friends will be going to school. We’ve talked about it a lot, and chatted about what school might be like, and which school she might go to a year later.
She seems totally cool with it all. Last night, she came home from pre-school with a red love heart that had her name and a friend’s name on it. “What’s this, honey?” I asked her. “Oh, it was her last day at pre-school today,” she replied, “and she gave me this.”
My eyes welled up with tears. But I smiled and said “That’s so kind of her!”
Then, this morning, there was a thank you card left by my daughter’s peg – a mum thanking us for a birthday present. At the end, it said ‘hope you stay in touch’ and it set me off again. I feel incredibly sad that so many children that my daughter has become close to – kids she has played with, day in day out, for a few years, will be heading out of her life. And I hadn’t prepared myself – or my daughter – for it happening now. In July. I thought it would happen in September, but of course any parents with an older school age child will likely take the younger sibling out of pre-school now, won’t they? So it’s taken me by surprise, this week.
Again, she seems totally cool with it all. Which is great. But it’s making me reflect on life and how sad it is when people come and go, and you miss them. I want to protect my daughter from that sadness – and I want to protect her from any sadness. I’m worried about any future fall outs with friends, her feeling hurt when friends ‘leave her out’ and I’m worried about her being bullied.
Of course, it’s natural to want to protect your child from hurt, and I know that she has to experience it, because it’s a part of life. She has to learn how to cope with feeling sad. But it makes me feel so sad…